Hey All - believe it or not, it's really spring!
Through my travels through social networking, I've joined a few groups that provide support to people recovering from abusive relationships. Out of respect for those members, I won't reveal their names, but they are there, and hopefully some of their members will decide to like the Facebook page.
As I read the entries on this new page, I empathize wholeheartedly with what these folks have seen. My heart goes out to how they have suffered, or continue to suffer. However, it seems that telling the tales of woe is only one part of what's needed. The other part is to heal and move forward.
At the beginning of this year, when I found Emotional Maturity and incorporated it into this blog, I started to realize that just bashing, crashing, and demonizing is not enough. No, we can't pretend this didn't happen. No, we can't pretend that what they've done is all our fault. And no, we can't say that it was all our imagination when they've hurt us.
However, we can't just make their fault and misdeeds a crutch for everything. At some point, we've got to stop the anger, end the grudges, and dispose of our ill will.
Many of those who do us wrong will not be apologetic or own up to their actions. As Isaiah Hankel says, we cannot expect a confession from such people - all we'll get is an excuse, a denial, a reminder that we're not perfect either, or maybe a half-assed apology. Accordingly, expecting to squeeze blood from a stone, or resorting to any other type of violence, is a waste.
Once we accept that they will not grow halos and wings, we have to stop cursing them for their horns and pitchforks. We don't have to call it forgiveness - they may have caused harm that forgiveness won't resolve. But we can call it dismissal or release.
We can censor them from our thoughts and conversations. We can leave their scenes on the cutting room floor. We can remove their likenesses from our internal Hall of Fame, and extend provide them with one of those tiny memorial plaques people screw onto park benches that nobody else notices.
For any of those group members who can read this, I feel you. I've been done to, done wrong, rejected, dejected, and neglected almost as much as you have, though I won't minimize your pain or make it a competition. I've also committed the erroneous error of holding onto those past wrongs for longer than necessary. No matter how wrong they were, or how evil they may still be, believe me when I say that holding grudges against them doesn't cure it. Instead, it eats away at you!
Even worse than that? It lets them off the hook. Yes, I know, that's shocking, but you're making something happen that's the exact opposite of what you want - you are letting them off the hook when you hold grudges against them. There comes a time when our feelings about them stop being their fault and start becoming ours. We are assuming liability for their fault! We are bailing them out! We are becoming just as bad as they are, because we emulate what we hate!!!!!!
You sure you want to give them that gift? Or would you rather reduce them to the unpleasantness of a bad dream?
That's what I thought.
For those who prefer spiritual comfort for this effort, rest assured: There's a Lady Named Karma. She's not impressed with bad boys, and She's not friendly with mean girls. She has the authority to pass judgment that we lack, and She has much better tools at Her disposal than we do.
Stop holding on to anger at our tormentors, and seeking revenge against our rivals. Instead, direct that energy towards continuous life improvement, as expected by Our Father G-D. Let Our Mother G-S Karma handle what the rest of them deserve.
I EXIST. I MATTER. I BELONG. I DESERVE.
I HANDLE WHAT I CAN CONTROL, WITH THE HELP OF FATHER G-D.
I DISMISS WHAT I CANNOT CONTROL, AND REFER IT UP TO MOTHER G-S.
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